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Two zero one seven.

(This post has a Russian version.)

I’ve wanted to share a resolutions post – I love writing those and reading those – and I wrote mine, but upon rereading, it sounded like a goal list. A plan. Nothing wrong with that, but one of my resolutions is to keep mum on the majority of my plans until I see at least some fruition.

So here, instead, is a list of vague inclinations. Things I want to let into my life, keep in my life, remove from my life. I try not to use the word ‘more’ when setting goals – goals need to be specific and time-sensitive – but since these ain’t goals, just mere suggestions, you’ll see quite a lot of the ‘more’ in there.

2017

take purposeless walks to clear my head // take purposeful photo walks // eat outside // drink tea // read books // sing when I feel like it // paint my nails often // try a new make-up brand // bake // listen // go on lunch dates // go out for breakfast // move // learn // avoid stagnation // properly set a table for at least five meals a week // invite people over // be proud of the flat i live in // heavily update my wardrobe // curb impulse purchases // watch my posture // rekindle my love for entertaining // sign up for a pole dancing class // show my library some lovin’ // spend more purposeful time with cats // be present // stop being lazy // stop half-arsing things // do more // talk less // listen more // listen better // be more // be better // buy less inexpensive perfume // learn some new hairstyles // watch 30 movies // attend a group exercise class or two // wear red // wear dresses // wear heels // post several ‘a day in the life’ posts // blog more // tweet more // facebook (even) less // stop apologising for my existence // stop self-sabotage // go on a picnic with my cousin // have coffee dates in parks with friends // invite people over to watch a movie in my living room // make popcorn // meal prep // laugh more // kiss more // hug more // smile more // give (even) less fucks // love more // keep a happiness jar // be content // keep cosy // light candles // get up // dress up // show up // never give up // always have fresh flowers in the kitchen // unfuck my habitat // keep it simple // stop confusing honesty with arseholeism // ditto for sarcasm and snark // marble // rose gold // grey // white // black // red // rust brown // more sushi // more running // less running around in circles // less complaining // less comparing // fresh air

What’s on your 2017 list?

Six Good Things Sunday #3

Feeling Better

For the last couple of weeks my system has been giving up on me from all directions. The stress of September and October (not my best months, by far) has finally taken its tall, and I spent a large chunk of the last two weeks of October and the whole of November in random pain. Stomach, back, head, respiratory system – you name it. I don’t want to jinx it, but I’ve been feeling better for the last week or so, and I hope this trend continues. Being ill always feels like such an invasion of privacy to me. I pray to God I will be able to keep my health into a very old age.

… I pray to God I reach old age.

Moving on!

candles

Candles

Some two weeks ago I finally caved in and bought a locally produced scented candle. It is a mix of several scents that are supposedly revealed gradually as the candle burns down, but I really only smell peonies – and I absolutely do not mind. It is also offensively pink and burns quite well.

Other than that I bought some generic candles for my antique (no, really) candle holders, and also stuck some into empty wine and water bottles. Whenever I’d be glum in the evening, I’d light them all as a bizarre imitation of a fireplace.

… I really want a house with a fireplace. *sadface*

From the list of more realistic wishes: Yankee Candles have appeared in Moldova on the grey market, and I think I am going to give myself one for Christmas. I’ve heard so many good words about them, and been wanting to try one for about 8 years now. The selection of scents available here is not large – aside from a few other selected scents and gift sets, here’s what’s available. The site is in Romanian, but the titles are in English.

If you have any recommendations for the scents off the list, do let me know. Right now I’m torn between Peach, Peony, Strawberry, and Grapefruit. I will only be able to get one so I have to choose wisely.

CHRISTMAS

YES ALL CAPS. IT’S NEAR AND I FEEL IT AND UGH SO EXCITED. I’ve already cracked out some light decor and mulled wine. So much mulled wine.

notebooks

Starting a New Notebook

I finished the Blue Cats and Butterflies notebook from Paperblanks’ Fantastic Felines series, and started a new one. This one is much smaller and not as fancy, but I had wanted it this way – I’m going to carry it around with me daily, mostly for to do and shopping lists. I bought this one on my trip to Saint Petersburg many years ago, so it’s high time I use it.

Full-on Declutter Mode

What happens when you move a full flat’s worth of stuff into your living room?

This.

I’ve been going through all these things, trying to sort through at least one bag or box each day, but to be honest it’s been much slower than that, as on most days I cap it at two 15-minute sessions – there is simply no time to do more, what’s with all the other activities on my daily list.

There are also about a dozen huge boxes of stuff (mostly books) in the library, and some more things in my father’s room. If I get through this in time for New Year’s, I’d be very surprised.

Though this note doesn’t make it sound like it, this is a good thing, because I am finally going through all my earthly possessions, getting rid of many of the things that I do not need. I just crack out Pimsleur Spanish, and go. I’ve also been able to rent out my second apartment, so yay.

chocolate

Chocolate

I finally let myself eat a piece of chocolate candy. And then even several pieces of a chocolate bar, with coffee. It was a very happy moment.

What’s been keeping you going this week? Share in the comments!

MAC Studio Fix Liquid in NW 10.

Note: If you don’t care for an intro in which I talk about my skin tone at length, feel free to scroll way down for actual photos of the product (not that you haven’t seen one before) and my thoughts on it.

This post has more webcam shots of my mug than anyone’s ever wished for. I have a directory called ‘camho’, and this is where the goodness came from. Oh dear. Old skool, y’all. Show kids & their selfies how shit gets done since 1998.

(Seriously, click on the link, the description is pure gold. Blazing colours and brilliant images, eeeehhheeeee. But if you put it in a perspective, time-wise, the camera was indeed quite brill.)

(… I still have it, by the way. I’d wager it still works, should test it w/ XP. Back then they made them to last.)

(… Anyway, this is a silly foundation post, not a computer nostalgia post. Sorry, sorry, I get carried away by old tech.)

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Choosing a foundation has always been difficult for me. I’m not alone, it’s an unnecessary make-up related complication for anyone on both ends of skin spectrum.

I’m pale. My albedo probably beats that one of the virgin Arctic snow. (I jest, but only a touch.) Most of the time I look ashen grey.

ashen grey

This is evening august sun reflecting off of my face, whilst the other half of said face is matching my t-shirt colour. This is also my happy face. Quite content indeed.

I’m also cold toned, but due to acne scarring and other such lovely things I have a lot of redness.

no escape

I’m not sure what’s going on with my fringe here, but my cat is certainly trying to escape the calamity.

Once I tried “correcting” the paleness by spending a little too much time in tanning beds, but it didn’t really go well. My skin felt damaged and burnt and tight and crumbly at the same time, and it scarcely developed any colour. Everyone in my family, except my grandmother on mother’s side, tan really easily. My brother spends five minutes in the sun and comes out with a golden glow. My father turns brown, and so did my mother. I thought that maybe I’d get the same effect.

Nope.

my hardhat is too small lulz

This is me tanned. I’m wearing a hardhat whilst visiting a metal production factory (that orange glowy line in the back is processed metal block rolling away to cool) with a purse that’s hardly appropriate for the occasion. I picked this photo, because it was taken about five days after I finished my vigorous tanning sessions. There’s some glow on my arms, and I remember legs showing a bit of peachy colour as well. My neck is as white as it’s always been, despite the tanning bed being vertical, and my face is maybe a tone darker than usual. Maybe. The glow/ blush is due to heat. Metal factories are hot.

About two weeks later all the colour went away.

All that after hundreds of bucks and hours of time (if you count commute and waiting, I wasn’t that adamant to get the ~*~sun-kissed~*~ look).

Afterwards I decided tanning was a waste of money, time, and health, and fully embraced my paleness. I don’t use self-tanners, including gradual ones. I only use bronzer for slightest cheek and nose contouring in extreme moderation.

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The range of pale foundations here is bad. Shops deliberately don’t import the lightest shades, because not even supposed professionals use them. The one that trained me certainly didn’t, the three I’ve worked with didn’t either, and out of all the make-up artists that have ever worked on my cousin’s face (she has a similar predicament) only one used a foundation that was a complete match to her skin tone without throwing a fit about ‘healthier look’ and ‘come with your own product then’.

A bit of colour to your cheeks will suit you.

Just blend it in down the neck, it won’t show any lines.

You have blemishes, a tone or two darker will benefit you, the lightest colours don’t cover blemished skin as well.

But this is the lightest the brand has.

You really aren’t that pale, you know.

These are the things I hear every single time I go to shop for foundation. Matter of taste; lie; relative truth; lie; eyeroll – are my respective responses.

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In MAC terms, I’m NW10. I can work with NW15, and even NC15, but the light has to be right, and I can’t always walk around with my face being perfectly lighted.

I have NC15 Studio Fix Powder Plus Foundation on my mug here.

rosie blondie ok light

In the indirect light, it looks almost like a match, unless you obsessively stare at my chin/neck, which I hope you won’t.

You creep.

brunette contrast

And this is the same against my natural hair colour. Looks OK.

(Where the hell have I put that bottle of brandy in the background…)

Everyone knows what a MAC Studio Fix Liquid Foundation looks like, but allow me to indulge myself. I don’t get to play with MAC stuff often.

Bottle and box:

mac nw 10

mac studio fix liquid nw 10

Fake lashes, Kindles, pencils, chocolate, and cats are in the background. Which is about the extent of my life interests, if you think of it.

Don’t. Let’s go on.

Wrist:

mac arm

Blended:

mac blended arm

Skipping the face this time around, because a) I’m sure you’ve seen enough of it and b) it’ll be a staple in upcoming make-up posts anyway.

I’m not going to write a detailed review, because there are enough of these already. The rundown:

  • the scent is a little weird. It smells a bit like a new pair of shoes or bike tyres, I dunno. Better than if they’d made it perfumed up the wazoo, plus when I wore it I didn’t really sense it;
  • the coverage is good;
  • the packaging is a little bit evil (damn that porous black matte screw top gets dirty in seconds);
  • I am still unsure is to whether this breaks me out or not;
  • the staying power is OK, but ‘OK’ for my face is ‘good/ great’ for others;
  • the match is good.

Overall I have mixed feelings about this product still. I really want to love it, because it’s a perfect match in colour for me, and you have no idea how hard it is to come across one around these lands. But something’s just not working, and I’m not sure what. Been thinking that perhaps it’s not the foundation that’s at fault, but the powder that I use to set it. We’ll see about that.